That night, we were sitting so close to each other. I can feel your skin against mine and I can hear your gentle breath as each second pass. I remember it clearly you were playing with my hand. You look at it for a long time and caressed all sides of my hand, you turned in around and do it the same way to the other side. I asked what are you doing? Do you remember how you answered that question?
“You know that games people have on their wedding day? When one of us is blindfold and we need to guess which one is our significant other? I want to make sure I know which one is your hand”
That is how you answered my question. Caught me off guard. I swear to myself, I should never let anyone come in. Not after what happened last year. Not after I realize how fucked up I can be when someone took a big part of me and pretend that nothing ever happened between us. At least I need to wait until I finish my study first.
Then you came. Out of nowhere. When I’m not looking for anything. You came and make me forget about everything I promised to myself. Make me want to let myself fall and believe that you will be there to catch me. Now here we are, picking names for the kids haha. Look who just want to have a fling and a mere company then have all the feeling and just want to stay together for a long time.
But bby, do you know when was I’m sure I want to have you in my life? Not when I first look in your eyes and realize you love me. Not when we first met and our conversation went really well. Not when you hold my hand and it fits perfectly. Not when you are being so nice and cool with my family. It was when I opened up and you said you will be there with me the whole time.
Not the empty words like “I will support you” or some other cliche stuffs you said to make someone feel better. You really asked how can you be there. You really asked what should you do and say. You asked about my schedule and want to accompany me on my next session. Then couple nights ago I get sad for no reason. You stayed that night. You stayed until you sure I feel much better.
Thank you for all the hugs, kisses, and McNuggets in between. I love you my peanut. Love you much till I want to share my 6 McNuggets with you. Let’s stay together for a long long time and make all our dreams come true.
